We all bend and sway with our friends and groups.  This group likes Rap Music, this group Country and this group Death Metal.  Or maybe with these group of friends you go to eat Chinese,  while the next group it is Mexican.  

     All of those are superficial adjustments that we make when the crowd mentality kicks in.  We don’t want to be the one lone Chinese Food lover in the Mexican group or vice versa.

     The real issue arises when someone tries to change the fundamental principles of who you are, to match what they want you to be. Akin to telling you that the sky is green when we all know that it is blue.  We all need to find our own path to walk in this life,  sometimes the path a little less traveled may be the one that you are more comfortable with.  But maybe you want the 8 Lane super highway,  all hustle and bustle and lots of commotion.  Those are decisions that only we can make. 

     Trying to live someone else’s dream or ideal of you is like trying to squeeze into a pair of jeans that are a tad too small.  They will fit,  but never be really comfortable,  find the life that is like the comfy well worn jeans, it is you,  thru and thru. 

    

     I was just cruising along doing my thing this past weekend,  things were going well.  Then out of the blue Sunday afternoon a migraine arrived.  This was a doozy of a migraine.  It started with nausea, and dizziness like the world wouldn’t stop spinning.  I kept thinking I was gonna toss my cookies at any moment.  Then came the numbness in my hands and fingertips,  a bizarre feeling that never becomes normal.

     I started by taking a shower and popping my migraine meds, and anti-nausea meds,  washing them down with Gatorade. 30 minutes later and the blinding pain and nausea hasn’t abated.  Onto stage 2, the heavier duty anti-nausea meds and more migraine meds,  along with pain meds and more Gatorade.  Finally I sleep because the nausea has abated a bit and the blinding pain has diminished a bit.
     I am very careful about what I eat to keep these debilitating headaches under control.  Minimal processed meats,  no artificial sweeteners,  lots of fresh veggies and fruit and lean protein.  I keep a food journal and nothing that is a trigger has crossed my lips in the passed week.  I am at a loss as to what caused this horrendous headache.

     3 hours of sleep and 3 doses of medication later I am finally feeling human.  The Migraine isn’t completely gone,  but what is left it is tolerable.  Today I was left with the Migraine hangover,  the dull ache that is left,  over my brow bone.  I thought maybe Yoga at the Y would be relaxing tonight and helpful.  I am not sure it helped,  but it didn’t make it worse. 
     One thing I do know for sure is that the lingering effects of this one will take days to leave,  and I am truly done with it.

    

     If I had any illusions that I was tethered to my cell phone those illusions came to a crashing halt on Friday afternoon.  I was on my way to the bank Friday and I had texted my boss to tell him I would be in after I was done.  I glanced down to see if he had responded and my phone was black.  I double tapped the screen to activate it,  all I got was the LG.. Life is Good logo.  Life was seriously not good.  My cell phone was not responding.  Trying not to panic,  I wedged it out of its Otter Box case (which is a feat in itself).  Then pried the case off and pulled the battery out,  waited a minute and popped the battery back in, nothing.  I repeated this 3 times with the same results.  By the end of the third sequence I was seriously pissed off and panicking a combination that is never good.
     I left the paperwork with the bank manager and went downstairs to my husbands shop.  Kyle repeated the process,  inserting his battery,  since we have the same phone.  I was tapping my foot the entire time and generally freaking out.  When it would not come to life for Kyle he handed it back to me and pronounced.  “It’s dead mom,  you wore it out,  it suffers from.. Over work and underpaid syndrome. 
       I called my boss via the landline when and  was as unimpressed as me.  The next call was to AT & T, my dear electronic was under warranty so a new one would be shipped.  I wouldn’t get it till Monday evening.  It was a long weekend without my beloved electronic friend.  I came to realize how dependent on the little beast I am.  No text,  email,  Facebook,  blogs,  words with friends,  Instagram,  or Google Hangouts.  It was a form of withdrawal, and it wasn’t fun. 

     With Super Tuesday occurring yesterday and Bernie Sanders taking 2nd place to HRC and Donald Trump keeping his commanding lead over both Ted Cruz and Marco Rubio I am having to face the facts that my politically ideology is not shared by the majority of my fellow American Citizens.  
     I really was  convinced that Trump would fizzle out months ago,  that his campaign would run its natural course and he would be the proverbial “flash in the pan”.  Unfortunately as the weeks and months have ticked by his campaign has gained momentum and his hate has grown even stronger.  He has said more outlandish and revolting things and yet his numbers have increased and his crowds have grown.
     There is a great quote that is often bastardized but I have included the original here.  “No one in this world as far as I know—and I have searched the records for years, and employed agents to help me—has ever lost money by underestimating the intelligence of the great masses of the plain people. ” H. L.  Mencken In my thinking that quote sums up his campaign in a nutshell.  The  American people are buying his crap hook line and sinker, and he is a true embarrassment to the Republican Party.  That is saying a lot,  they don’t usually need any help to be embarrassed they do fine on their own,  but somehow they found him to do it for them this time.
     Now on the Democratic side HRC,  well I seem to be in the minority from the votes,  but I don’t really want another Clinton in the White House.  After all the flip flopping she has done and the Benghazi scandal she still walks around like she is heir apparent.  I am really at a loss.  

Somehow we have lost our way,  and I don’t know how to get the voting public to understand that.