The undeniable urge to choke the living s##t out of someone. That has been my week, between work, getting ready for the holidays, trying to keep up with the social schedules of 2 teenage boys, and family in general. It is like my world is on fire and everywhere I go the extinguishers are all broken.
I have spent the last 3 weeks putting out rhetorical fires. Jumping from one crisis to the next. I would be willing to admit it is why I either fall into bed exhausted at night or toss and turn running alternate scenarios in my head for hours. Waking up more tired than when I went to bed.
Last night was my “see the light moment” if you could call it that. When I was getting my MBA and working full time, and carrying on my long distance relationship with my husband (stress is not new to me). I would get these wild night terrors where I was being chased by a monster, a big green scary looking monster. This monster looked sort of like Sully from Monsters, Inc, but not near as friendly. The faster I ran the closer the thing got.
Last night I had The Scary Green Monster Dream. My body has drawn the line in the sand. No more stress lady, figure it out. So today I will breathe deep and , have some tea, be a duck and let it roll off, because the monster will not get me.